If I could pick my life, have everything and anything I wanted, I would want Grazing to be an anime (produced by Bones, if you want to get specific with it).
In 2016, one of the very first things I made was a Wattpad trailer. A trailer for Grazing, that is. If I remember correctly, really reach into my mind, the story wasn’t done yet. Five years of writing and this story wasn’t done yet.
But I made the trailer, the first trailer of two. The song? None other than the Marylin Mason’s cover of “Sweet Dreams”.
So, if I had to go into the soundtrack of the anime, I would pick the spooky, haunting tune of Sweet Dreams. It’d be the first song to play, and on the first trailer as well.
For the past few days, I’ve been in a creative slump. My dream has always been to be a bestselling author. I wanted books on the shelves. I wanted a massive line of people, waiting for my autograph. I wanted to be known.
But I really thought about it and did some research and realized all that stems from ego. It won’t make me a better writer.
It wouldn’t even validate the quality of my writing.
I have money coming in, so it’s not like I necessarily need the income. Sure, six or seven figures would be great, but it’s not desperately needed.
To quote a song…
“I am not afraid to keep on living. I am not afraid to walk this world alone.”
So, I’m going to keep on writing because, to quote a famous author, “when I write, I don’t feel like I should be doing anything else.” I just feel the characters and I feel the words that connect them to each other. I feel that symmetry, that flow, and it’s like watching a river trickle over rocks. There’s a chaotic, peaceful pattern to it all.